‘hindsight’ archives
In Celebration Of Pumpkins And Halloweens Of Yore
This Halloween my creativity and time are currently still hibernating in unopened boxes, and so, I bring you:
Costumes of yesteryear, a tour of sorts brought to you by The Ghost of Halloween Past:
One of my very first Halloweens, as Kerri Cottontail:
Saying “Boo” and meaning it since 1982. This year someone clearly couldn’t decide between “Ghost” [...]
Deep Thoughts By Kerri Handey,* Circa 1991, When I Was Younger And Wiser, And Wrote With Pink Ink
While reorganizing and purging our garage of junk possessions long left for garbage last weekend, I found a box of old journals and notebooks in which I attempted to be artistic when I was still in elementary school and still figuring out that multi-colored pens aren’t a necessity. Especially not while doing Math.
All of it [...]
A Year In Pictures
“There are three hundred and sixty-four days when you might get un-birthday presents … and only one for birthday presents, you know. - Lewis Carroll”
I was sixteen twenty-four going on seventeen twenty-five this past week*, and while last Friday the fifteenth marked the actual day of birthday-celebrating, let’s be honest, we never really feel older [...]
She Was Me, Once
He can’t decide whether to sink or swim, and so, he floats, mostly face-down, tilting his head every so often to taste the promise of air in his lungs. He’s been at it so long he’s almost convinced himself his dead man’s float is “living.”
She hurls tears on the days he won’t validate her feelings [...]
Manic (Link) Monday: Excuse Edition
I’m good at excuses. I mean, REALLY good. If there was a job in existence whose description of duties read: “Qualified applicants must be adept at sitting around all day, at a desk preferably, but really, wherever you want–the beach is fine with us, and sure, you might as well grab a coconut drink with [...]
Remembering Him
“It doesn’t matter who my father was; it matters who I remember he was.” -Anne Sexton
I remember the way he had to hunch himself over to hug me. Until the day he didn’t have to anymore. I was twelve. I remember that, too: suddenly, unexpectedly, being tall enough to reach him. Tall enough to see [...]
On Desire
“The desire of the man is for the woman, but the desire of the woman, is for the desire of the man.”
-Germaine de Stael
I’m surprised to see you
not looking at me.
I was counting on your obsession to last
longer. Until I convinced myself
of your uselessness. (I let you)
seep into my [...]
Classified Ads, WeekendUpdate Edition
310/GENERAL
It’s been a long week, but by “long” I mostly been “progressive and enlightening.” I feel better, and while I know it will take me some time to fully finish licking my wounds, I know I am exceedingly blessed, and exceedingly capable. And that’s a good feeling. One that’s been alluding me for far too [...]
Seventy-One
She remembers seven years ago like it was this afternoon.
She can still see him falling, vessels in his head screaming at him, screaming at her, in a single moment eradicating his ability to stand on legs once strong and lean.
She sat outside on the patio after opening gifts and told Chris and I stories both [...]
A Birthday In Pictures
Thursday June 15th, at Priest Lake, Idaho, around 5:30pm, I turned 24. To commemorate the event, Chris and I took 2400 pictures. Each.
Here are a few of my favorites. The rest shall be uploaded to Flickr tonight. That is, if I can manage to trick* Chris away from the computer for an hour. I’m [...]
